wondering what's next

i really should be sleeping right now. i mean, it is after 12 a.m. and i have church in the morning (and i wanted to go on a run before church? lol). but i feel like writing. i don't know what i feel like saying though. and with blogging you probably should know what you want to say first? oh well.

anyways, i'm really curious to see what is going to happen in the future. and i mean, soon soon. like next month soon. or even a few weeks soon. and i'm excited, but i'm also really anxious and nervous. and i feel really selfish. because, i'm always wondering about what i want to happen, or what i think should happen, or what i think will happen. and God is probably thinking, "oh chanel. just trust me. i know what you want and what you would like to happen. but I have everything under control and know what is best"*

it's just so hard leaving everything in God's hands! and not only that, but taking a step of faith in what you believe it is that God is calling you to do. because, if i'm being honest, i'm really quick to jump into what i want to do, and am quick to forget and not listen to what GOD wants me to do.

okay, so... here is my commitment to spending every single day over christmas break (yay! it's christmas break! FINALLY!) with Jesus and dedicating time to prayer and reading my Bible. i will use this break to bring Him glory and to try to get a glimpse in what He wants me to do over the next year.

so i guess i should maybe check in every day and let you know how it's going? yeah, we'll see how that goes :p but i'll try to write everyday! you can do it me! (is it weird i give myself pep talks? yeah probs. but jess on new girl does it.... hahaha)