we love pp

so, did i mention that natalie and i love phillip phillips? oh i didn't? well, now you know!

you're in love with him too now, huh?

dude, he's so amazing. and, we just love him. we knew our love for him was meant to be as soon as we heard that his name was phillip phillips. natalie and i love when people have first names as their last names. some examples include: matthew christopher, luke bryan, bob dylan, cara lucas, or bob branden daniel. we wish our last name was really paul instead of paulk. cuz then we'd have a first name as our last name. bahaha. our first name as last name obsession started way back when jon peter lewis was on american idol.

he was so cute!!!

yeah, jpl was super cute. the one week i didn't vote for him, he went home. i'm not even joking! it was personally my fault that he went home. i'm sorry jon peter lewis!

in other news, i'm pretty sure i gave myself a bladder infection today. because i drank 1.5 liters of water and then held my pee for over an hour. and then i couldn't even walk to the toilet cuz it hurt so bad. yeah, i'm an idiot! hello!

and natalie is embarrassed that i post this stuff. and i'll probably get embarrassed about it later. but oh well!

www: easter edition

www: what we wore! dang i'm on a roll. two posts in one day! shoot! anyways, this is what nat and i wore for easter. natalie is the cutest sister ever. and i adore all of these photos of her. i'm sure you will too!

oh natalie!

yep, she's adorable. and i'm glad i stole borrowed this dress from her! and yes, you should be jealous of my burn mark and my band-aid. i know you want a matching one, too. don't worry, all you have to do is work at chipotle and you'll get lots of them!

happy easter!

on the way to grandma and grandpas!

happy late easter! nat and i had a lot of fun hanging out with our family at our grandparent's house. and we definitely looked really cute that day (i stole natalie's dress again :) muahaha ). i hadn't been to sunday morning service in forever, but i finally got to go that morning! it was awesome being with my family and praising God for His Son. dude, it's so sweet that my family is saved. and that they all love jesus. it makes me happy. i really am super blessed to have such a close family. and i'm even more blessed that they all love the Lord. thank you God! :) 

nat, casey, and sandy. cute babies!

natakie!

 

my sister and grandpa

mom, me, nat, and grandma

our cousin brianna is going to be a model one day, i decided.

proof: sandy really is an alien. WHO SITS ON A TABLE LIKE THIS?!?

bahaha natalie!

pastor bob said this and i really liked it: "the fact that Jesus is risen means Jesus is ruling!" woohoo!

JESUS IS RISEN

ps. the only thing that would have made easter even better is if peeta hutcherson had made a guest appearance.

natalie and i want blog friends

why can't natalie and i be friends with blog people in real life? maybe one day! maybe if i actually blogged and posted pictures (i probably need a camera for that, huh?) and was actually funny or entertaining on here, we would all become friends! so please go read this blog right now: busy bee lauren. you'll probably cry and pee your pants, all at the same time. i know natalie and i do whenever we're on there. natalie frequently refers to her as our sister, or says things like, "why aren't we best friends with lauren?"

and it's a good question... why aren't we best friends with her?!?

maybe one day! bahaha

warning: if you did not like hunger games (book or movie) then do not ever go on her blog. i forbid you... seriously

i have a final in 12 hours

accounting is going to kill me. it seriously drains the life out of me. but i love it at the same time! i'm crazy?

and finals are making me feel like this... okay, maybe that's an exaggeration, but whatever haha

in happier news... the hunger games come out in 8 days. holy moly!!! nat and i have loved these books for 4 years now. so i'm super stoked to see it as a movie! and i am just warning you that i will give everything away if you are in my theater. and i might yell at you if you are team gale (is that a joke? seriously). and don't be alarmed when natalie and i cry and scream like little babies (we do tend to do that when it comes to books that we love). i'm excited!!

i'll leave you with a picture you can admire until the movie comes out:

oh peeta hutcherson! you are too much!! bahaha

and ps. i'm freaking out about romania. 7 weeks? that's long!!

girls night: christmas edition

we try to have girls night every tuesday. we gather and do what we do best: eat lots of food (then digest and eat some more food!), laugh at everything and listen to gotye on repeat all night. but we have been failing at getting together pretty badly as of late. but i don't blame us since we all go to school full time and have jobs.  i know it's march and just a few months past december, but i never posted these and i just wanted to reminisce on our girls night: christmas edition and laugh at some photos. i think i cry/pee my pants every time i look at them. oh joy.

man, we're so weird! but i absolutely adore these girls! i'm pretty sure i will die every time i look at these, even in years to come.

restroom club

Why is it that I only ever go to blog when I'm in a sad/ weird mood? Oh well. Anyways... So last week at work, I went to go clean the men's restroom while we were still open. and I thought no one was in there and just went in. Then a guy came out of the stall. And I was just standing there with my mouth open (I didn't see anything though!). Then I started giggling. And he was like, "I was wondering why someone was knocking on the big door." Then I just kept laughing and said sorry then left. And, to top it off, he is a regular! So I will see him again. Haha embarrassing! Side note: I've walked into the men's restroom at school so many times! I just am never paying attention I guess! But then the smell hits me and I know I'm in the wrong place. Haha

it's sunday

was obsessed with this (and now the whole world is too...)

now have been listening to this

currently reading this (2nd time now. it's so so good!)

dreaming about this (i didn't tell you that i was going to romania this summer for 7 weeks? God is good :) i'll post about it later)

i'm really not in the best mood right now. but i wanted to write a little something on here since it has been so long. currently pondering and thinking about this verse. it's a tough one! especially as i'm getting a bit older.

and praying over getting this (a tattoo in general, not any of those specific ones)

and i smell like this

night world!

dream-land

so, i dream every single night (i mean, i'm sure we all do but i usually remember my dreams). it's weird if i don't dream or if i wake up not thinking about anything. for months, after my boyfriend and i broke up, i dreamt about him every single night. no joke. it was especially bad right after he got a new girlfriend (a few lines from my journal during that time [while i was on the plane ride over to haiti]: "i'll try to get some sleep. my mind just wanders though. and then i dream... i don't want to dream right now. i just want to rest and not think about anything"). whenever i dreamt about him, i always woke up feeling really sad. because i would realize that it was just a dream. and then my day would start with me having to remind myself that God did not want us together and that we weren't supposed to be together. but it always was such a lame way to start the day. already feeling tired and exhausted, even if i had gotten a full nights sleep. it was hard going from dream-land to reality over and over again.

lately though, i haven't been dreaming about him (praise God!!). and i have only been having strange dreams, not dreams about him (haha). however, the other night he was there in my dream again. i found him sitting in a room, waiting for me. when i walked over and stood in front of him i said, "i always find you in my dreams..." to which he responded, "it's where i'm alive" (isn't the "i always find you in my dreams" line so cheesy! or not cheesy, but something you would hear in a movie. am i right?? lol). then he asked me to stay with him in the dream, and i told him that it wasn't real and that i had to go (this is probably totally lame and stupid but whatever. i wanted to share). then i woke up. and i was so bummed. first of all, because it was just a dream. and second of all, because i was thinking about him again. and i didn't want to be thinking about him. i had been doing so so good!

i used to have dreams about my dog sarah after she died. after a while, i realized that the sarah in my dreams wasn't my real sarah. the sarah in my dreams started getting angry and defensive. until one time in a dream i had to scream at her and tell her to leave, because she wasn't real and she wasn't alive. since then, i haven't dreamt about her at all. so, i'm thinking that the next time i meet my ex in a dream, i need to tell him to leave. because he isn't real and he doesn't belong in my dreams. he doesn't belong in my thoughts or in my life at all. God took him away for a reason, and i want to live the life God has chosen for me.

anyways, i'm sure this all sounds silly or whatever, but i wanted to share. i hope i don't meet him in my dreams tonight though, cuz i don't think i'm exactly ready to tell him to go away. maybe after i've gotten rid of all of the old things that he had given me over the years (i'll have to post about that later though, cuz my friend and i are getting rid of stuff from our ex-boyfriends together. that will be interesting!). i feel better though, having written this all out. it makes me feel like my heart is getting sewn up more and more (i'll have to tell you about that image that the Lord showed me in another post!!).

so thank you God for being with me through all of this. and for holding me close every single day, especially during the hard days.

my heart right now

i'm sitting on whitnee's bed with natalie by my side. i love nights like this :) we went to dinner with ryan tonight and he treated all of us! he is too nice! thanks ry! bonus: we talked about romania the whole time and prayed over the trip. alksdjfaiseuralksndvlawueraksdngalsdguaslkjdf yay!

i think i mentioned before how badly i wanted to go to romania... yeah i totes did. did i mention that i am now considering and praying about staying there for... wait for it.... wait for it... 7 WEEKS. eeeeeeee! my heart jumps even when i just think about it! seriously Lord, i want to go so badly!

okay, so now i'm laughing. because whitnee is writing her mom a letter and asking us to find verses for her about seeking counsel from other believers, and verses about our plans versus God's plans. and two verses stood out to me and i think they are verses that i need to remember right now:

proverbs 19:21* "many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails"

proverbs 16:9* "a man's heart plans his way, but the LORD directs his steps"

oh, God. you got me. i need to slow down. will do :)

i just told jessica that i am so glad that right now my biggest concern/worry is over the romania mission trip next summer. life is so good! and i am so blessed! i really need to take time and slow down, and just come before the Lord and lay at His feet. because that is where He will confirm whether or not i am called to romania and whether or not i should go. plus, i need Him so badly! my heart aches and my life loses any source of joy whenever i am not consistently spending time with Jesus.

so God, thank you for this reminder to give my plans to you. and i shouldn't have plans or expectations. i need to give them all over to you and allow you to do your thing! i need to allow you to direct my steps. and i'm excited to let you to do so! please take my life and use it radically for you and for you alone Lord. i am all yours!